Success and Self-Sabotage- Becoming A Witness To The Self

I dreamed that I was a golden, female eagle, with an enormous wingspan, flying high, soaring powerfully through the sky.

Whe without warning, I, dressed as my partner (a male), stepped up and shot at me, I fell from the sky, looming larger and larger as I approached the earth.

I turned to the hunter (me) 'Are you happy' I said 'you have killed this wonderful being for no reason other than your lack of consciousness.'

I, as the hunter, hung my head in shame, wanting nothing more than to take back my unconscious action and restore the beautiful, golden eagle to its former glory.

This dream tells me that as I soar to my potential success I have activated an unconscious sabotage program within my psyche.
A program that percieved the role of woman as 'stay at home' and 'to be provided for'  rather than enter the 'man's domain' of money and power.
I realise in the modern age it may seem ridiculous to see the world of money and power as the male domain, but we re talking GENERATIONS of familial and social programming that is still highly active in the unconscious of both men and women today.

Happily my dream was so vivid and memorable as to be unmistakeable, bring to conscious awareness my sabotaging programming.

There is no-one else to blame anymore, the saga has been playing to long, to blame is to distract from the more important job of witnessing the self and changing the programming for a better life.

Now is the time to take every opportunity to bring balance to our lives, to clean up old sabotaging ideas and soar to even greater heights than we have ever been capable of before!

Ask and Ye Shall Receive- Our Lives, Chaos or Design?

I have a technique for gaining answers to philosophical questions. A simple but effective technique that can be used in many ways.
It is called asking.
We have all heard the saying 'Ask and you shall receive' well I think we interpret that to mean that if we are brave enough to ask someone for something that we want we just may get it. Or we should get it and something is wrong if we don't. Hmmmm, Maybe.
I think humans have a tendencey to simplify or over complicate interpretations (whatever is most comfortable to the individual) to such an extent that we may sometimes sabotage our own evolution.

My technique for discoverinbg the answers to questions is ASK and then LISTEN...not to another person but simply to the universe. By universe I mean my life, what happens in the next moments after I have asked.
We are one being and we have the answers to it all, doesn't it stand to reason that if we ask and then be observant we will be likely to receive....the answer....

What am I painting? I ask myself as I embark on an abstract adventure, paintbrush in hand......

The answer will show itself to me if I can be quiet enough and allowing enough to paint and witness my thoughts whilst doing so.

Another example-
My email stopped working the other day and in doing so it caused me to send some important career enhancing emails without text a number of times! EMBARRASSING for me when hoping to impress the recipient with my competence!

As I was trying to fix it I asked myself why did this happen at such a crucial moment, I kept working away quietly when a random thought popped into my head, I must get a new, custom e-mail address that relates to my business, mush more professional...' AHA that was the answer, and I heard it!

If my email had broken down any other time I may not have been as affected, but at this moment I needed the push to take my next important business move.

I wonder if we have an input on an etheric level, is there another facet of me watching and calculating the best moves for me, the moves that will gain my attention and motivate me most in achieving my greatest desires, my evolution and my happiness, chaos or design, wait, let me just ask............

Do We Ever Really Say Goodbye?

Saying Goodbye-

Do we ever really say goodbye? If we are made up of the same thing that is in the air around us, if the very atoms we breathe are the same as the deepest pieces of ourselves then we MUST be only and literally ONE organism. The earth, the stars, the body dancing in front of us, the one we are walking sadly away from are all moving parts of the one being! Different densities for sure, interesting conglomerations but when looked at on the level of Physics we are a pulsing, colourful, fluid energy. How then, can we say goodbye to parts of our own being, it just isn’t possible no matter how you look at it.  I am thinking it is simply a misunderstanding that makes us cry when someone we love goes away. We have forgotten that we are the one body, that we are breathing each other all the time. People resist this concept because as romantic as it all sounds to embrace it fully we must first accept that EVERYTHING is us, not just the pretty bits or the sentimental bits.  Not so easy but the payoff is the greatest. Because it means that we will never be alone, ever again. It takes courage to look this concept squarely in the eye. If done thoroughly you will find that every part of you is unable to act any differently or it really really would. That’s not to say that awful things should be happening, of course they ‘shouldn’t’ but the fact is they are and until they are met with a degree of acceptance and compassion they probably won’t change, not permanently anyway. The way to find this compassion is to understand the truth of the concept of oneness; it is not an airy fairy, rings on the fingers and bells on the toes sing along, it is a literal, scientifically based truth. We ARE each other, our cells slough off and regenerate constantly, we never entirely disappear even when we die there is nowhere for us to go, we are one big strange being that just changes form as it pleases. It is only dreams and stories that cause us to feel the pain that we do when the one we love walks away. If God is life and God is Love and we are life, then we are God and we are love and we are always together.

HA,  you thought you could leave me but you have not gone anywhere my love you are still here, I just took a breathe of you and you taste great…. all I want to know now is………what’s next on the menu?

 Terrorism and Bullying

I have a theory about terrorism, I do not believe that it is possible to deliver the world from the evils of terrorism without first ridding ourselves of our own personal terroristic tendencies. It starts with powerlessness. I can almost hear everyone shouting, I AM NOT A TERRORIST. Well maybe you’re not, but are you a bully? For example, someone rushes by you knocking something out of your hand, do you smile and feel okay about that or do you growl and wish to push them angrily? Your child drops a glass filled with milk all over the new carpet, do you respond with ‘that’s okay, help me clean it up, let’s be more careful next time, Honey,’( because of course the carpet is less important than the emotional wellbeing of your child after all it is much easier to remedy a smelly wet carpet than fix damage done in childhood) or is it a reaction that issues unguarded from your lips “ YOU”RE SO CLUMSY, why don’t you watch what you’re doing, OH MY GOD The carpet cost $2000, it’s ruined, get outta my sight’ leaving the child feeling guilty and scared of upsetting and disappointing you. Maybe the child won’t spill milk again or maybe now the child is so nervous he can’t even drink milk without that memory reverberating in the back of his mind. Maybe that failure permeates the child’s life taking on myriad forms and causing a ripple of fear in every uncertain situation.

I’m not trying to cause more guilt by illustrating this point, but offering an insight into the possible source for the terror in our society. If we were each treated with respect, given freedom of choice, understood in our weaker or sillier moments, accepted despite our shortcomings and delighted in for our quirks and differences when we were little enough for this to become implicit to our being do you think we would be as likely to grow up needing to prove ourselves and fight for our rights so adamantly and violently.  Consider it….even if there was a cause, a social injustice to be remedied all our programming would be about gentleness and peaceful problem solving Human life and emotional health would be sanctified above material gain and above the idea of an abstract God that lives outside of our soul, we would be satisfied. There would be no call for MORE or desire to force anyone to see things one way. We wouldn’t be insecure and frightened we would not need to terrorise to make a point. Our lives shared in joy, with each other would BE the point.

Address the terrorist that lives in your house, in your heart and maybe then we are on our way to the end of bullying and terrorism once and for all. Either way you look at it one person makes an exponential difference, there is no denying it.

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Promises- Love and The Universe

Promises-

If I promised to love you forever in the old days, you can rest assured it meant something, but something uncertain.  Misleadingly it would sound like the most absolute phrase in the world. If I say I love you now, you can know I mean it. Why, you ask? Because now I don’t pretend to assume how I will feel in the next minute.

These days in the moment I say I love you, you can bet you’re hat that I do!

I used to think I could predict how I would feel, I would argue for myself passionately. But how could I know?

Maybe this is what happens when you grow up or become disillusioned, one too many promises couldn’t be kept; promises that you have finally realised were no-one’s really to make and now you know that it was no-one’s fault they were broken.

It is comfortable to be angry with someone else for not keeping a promise because if you think they could have controlled their feelings you can fool yourself that it might be possible to control your own. Double-edged sword, we want things ordered and safe in an effort to get through the life without getting hurt. So we try to keep to all the rules, saying the right things at the right times, hence I will love you FOREVER.

I promise this, that and the other thing- poverty, chastity, I will never love another, YUK.

The terrible, terrible payoff for demanding all these vows is the way we give up our own feelings, desires and all the many experiences that meet us on our path in an effort to maintain this illusion of control. And ironically when we try so hard not to respond to the energy that naturally flows our way, it tends to become all the more compelling!

I don’t think we are very kind to ourselves, I think we are spending too much time in conflict with our inner voices. I wonder what would happen if we practiced active listening with ourselves? If we sat for 15 minutes in the morning and listened to our mind. If we heard it say, I want to eat and eat and eat all day long without stopping, then we could respond with; I know darling and that’s okay, I love you anyway, there’s nothing wrong with you that is just the way it feels and feelings change. What do you think makes you want to do that?

If we could dialogue with ourselves on this level do you think there would be so many misunderstood, frustrated people running around?  If only we could just accept that the feelings and urges that we have are not really us, that we lie beneath the confusion and we are so wonderful and that with a little bit of loving compassion from, at the very least our own self, we may uncover and relieve some of the stuff that stands in our way.   

We exist forever, we are love, it stands strong in that context then, that we automatically love forever, and that has little if anything to do with anybody else. We don't need to make promises or try to keep them because the simple truth of our existence is promise enough.